Uninspired
Ever since I learned that i was going to be the telephone operator for two days i dreaded the idea last week. Now here i am facing the telephone and yes i am currently the substitute telephone operator (who does not really know how to operate the damn thing!). Well at least i could use the computer and have fast internet access. I just feel that today i am bound to be scolded, reprimanded and maybe shouted at. Honestly i suck when it comes to my people skills.
The phone is silent at least i get to do less mistakes. (Sharon why did you leave me here...i might make a mess out of your job.)
i am suppose to be out of this job when this month ends...it was definitely a releif. Before i tell you (yes you the readers that i do not have) my recent predicament i am going to tell you about how boring my life is before all this uncertainty started.
Last March 2004 i graduate from college. i thought that now i could finally on the path into follwing my dreams...well then my parents stepped in. I know they are doing everything for the better good of human kind (keeping me of the streets and keeping me from bring greater evil to the world) we went to the United States of America (the land of the Free?) to have vacation and maybe try to see if i could study (widen my horizons) there. We were to stay there for 6 months but unfortunately with no sufficient funds and nothing to do by the fourth month we went home. i know that i am very fortunate to have been able to go there but all i could say is that four months was one of the most boring moments in my life. We stayed most of the time in the house. My relatives were so busy. Well i liked the stay in New York better (well we stayed in Winnetka, California first) becuase even though people were busy you could still go places even there are no one to show you areound (there is the subway Thank God). In California you had to have a car so you can go anywhere. Its not that there is no car its just there is no one to drive us (the tourists) around. Well maybe there are also high points in my visit in the States. Like the time we had free ice cream at baskin robbins (i dont know if the spelling is correct) and the good thing about it is not the free ice cream but the handsome guy who scooped you the free ice cream. The time when we went to museums like the Getty in LA and the Metropolitan in New York. I haven't even toured everything in the Metropolitan. I could live there. The times square is definitely a site to behold. Then there is the time waiting outside the TRL studio. i was kinda dumn but i did get to see Denzel Washinton and the hosts of TRL. Well there are more tiny events that somehow gave my visit a little twist. Even though i was super bored i still love the US especially New York. That is what i want to aim for.
Well we got back from USA i no longer know what to do next. The plans for New york seems so far away (we were going back in 2006, Man thats 2 years away i mean at that time i came back) and i was stuck in Davao. I am not saying Davao is not a good place to stay. That is where i grew up but the one of the reasons why i studied in Manila is that i do not want to be stuck in Davao. That is now my current situation. I am stuck in Davao and stuck with what seems a dead-end job. I am a clerk...well i got this job because i was bored to death being stuck at home. At first it seems a good idea because i'd rather be a clerk rather than become homicidal maniac (you will definitely become one when you are stuck at home). Being a clerk is not bad. The people here are ok even though they are more older than me. It just that i can not do my art. That fuels my will to live. When i was told by my boss that (well somehow it was a promotion) he would add more resposibilites to my current job. At first i was excited but when he mention call center, customer service and talking to people a bell rang in my head. That is the kind of job i am avoiding. A raise in the salary would not even make me take the job i rather be stuck at home. My boss also said that if i would not accept the job he would find another person and i would lose mine now. The possibility of losing my job was like heaven to my ears. At leat i would not make up a lame excuse to resign from my job.
(Okay i know i am very ungrateful but i cannot deny that i cannot live to become ordiany. I had enough being a loser. i want to be cool...even though i am the only one who thinks so. i mean in my current situation even i myself think that i am a loser.)
If i do get out here i plan to apply for a teaching job. i know i said earlier that i am not good with people but i think i could handle younger people. Some how youth never fails you to be inspired. i know it is still a very long way to go at least there is light shinning ahead.
There is always hope for the unispired like me...
The phone is silent at least i get to do less mistakes. (Sharon why did you leave me here...i might make a mess out of your job.)
i am suppose to be out of this job when this month ends...it was definitely a releif. Before i tell you (yes you the readers that i do not have) my recent predicament i am going to tell you about how boring my life is before all this uncertainty started.
Last March 2004 i graduate from college. i thought that now i could finally on the path into follwing my dreams...well then my parents stepped in. I know they are doing everything for the better good of human kind (keeping me of the streets and keeping me from bring greater evil to the world) we went to the United States of America (the land of the Free?) to have vacation and maybe try to see if i could study (widen my horizons) there. We were to stay there for 6 months but unfortunately with no sufficient funds and nothing to do by the fourth month we went home. i know that i am very fortunate to have been able to go there but all i could say is that four months was one of the most boring moments in my life. We stayed most of the time in the house. My relatives were so busy. Well i liked the stay in New York better (well we stayed in Winnetka, California first) becuase even though people were busy you could still go places even there are no one to show you areound (there is the subway Thank God). In California you had to have a car so you can go anywhere. Its not that there is no car its just there is no one to drive us (the tourists) around. Well maybe there are also high points in my visit in the States. Like the time we had free ice cream at baskin robbins (i dont know if the spelling is correct) and the good thing about it is not the free ice cream but the handsome guy who scooped you the free ice cream. The time when we went to museums like the Getty in LA and the Metropolitan in New York. I haven't even toured everything in the Metropolitan. I could live there. The times square is definitely a site to behold. Then there is the time waiting outside the TRL studio. i was kinda dumn but i did get to see Denzel Washinton and the hosts of TRL. Well there are more tiny events that somehow gave my visit a little twist. Even though i was super bored i still love the US especially New York. That is what i want to aim for.
Well we got back from USA i no longer know what to do next. The plans for New york seems so far away (we were going back in 2006, Man thats 2 years away i mean at that time i came back) and i was stuck in Davao. I am not saying Davao is not a good place to stay. That is where i grew up but the one of the reasons why i studied in Manila is that i do not want to be stuck in Davao. That is now my current situation. I am stuck in Davao and stuck with what seems a dead-end job. I am a clerk...well i got this job because i was bored to death being stuck at home. At first it seems a good idea because i'd rather be a clerk rather than become homicidal maniac (you will definitely become one when you are stuck at home). Being a clerk is not bad. The people here are ok even though they are more older than me. It just that i can not do my art. That fuels my will to live. When i was told by my boss that (well somehow it was a promotion) he would add more resposibilites to my current job. At first i was excited but when he mention call center, customer service and talking to people a bell rang in my head. That is the kind of job i am avoiding. A raise in the salary would not even make me take the job i rather be stuck at home. My boss also said that if i would not accept the job he would find another person and i would lose mine now. The possibility of losing my job was like heaven to my ears. At leat i would not make up a lame excuse to resign from my job.
(Okay i know i am very ungrateful but i cannot deny that i cannot live to become ordiany. I had enough being a loser. i want to be cool...even though i am the only one who thinks so. i mean in my current situation even i myself think that i am a loser.)
If i do get out here i plan to apply for a teaching job. i know i said earlier that i am not good with people but i think i could handle younger people. Some how youth never fails you to be inspired. i know it is still a very long way to go at least there is light shinning ahead.
There is always hope for the unispired like me...
posted by miles0282 @ 8:48 AM
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helo.. u got 1 reader here ;)
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