A Brand New Year

a few days from now and its going to be a new year...
a fresh start, a blank page and hopefully a new beginning...
i have been drowning in my past and now i want to wake up and truely live a life worth remembering.

i do not want to rewrite my past
i do not want to forget either
even though my past is so putrid and dank it is still a part of me

so now in a dawn of another year i will try to face my reality
formulate new dreams
stop living in my illusions
and maybe try to be happy
i have been so sad for to long
that i am too tired that even my tears does not mean anything any longer

i will fight for my art and my life
i will no longer hold back

a few days from now will be another year
and this coming year
i will take a stand